Hey there, I'm Don. 22 years old, and a passenger of the roller coaster of life. Luckily not doing it alone, and have the most supportive and amazing girl on the planet by my side. And having a kickass group of friends helps too. My mind works in a nonstop visual manner, and I'm always looking to learn new things. So maybe stick around and see what we can teach or show each other.

Computer is eating itself.

Had an approximate 110 gigs of storage on any other day, and now I’m down to 7 gigs somehow. An alert came up while I was away from it, and said startup disk was almost full, blahblahblah. Check storage, I’m at a few hundred MEGS and I’m watching it plummet by the second. Shut off all running programs, gain a bit back, but continues to decrease. Reboot, get up to about 6.5 gigs, and stable for the most part. No idea what ate up the space. Any one ever experience this, or anything like that? It’s a mid 2010 (when I bought it) MacBook Pro.

Possible lead on a job..

So it was brought to my attention that I may be able to get a job from my uncle, doing construction. He is pretty high up on the chain of command, and knows a lot of people. He just gave my cousin a job, paying him $45 an hour. From what my grandmother was saying, he’s hired most of the guys in the family at some point or another, and paid them well. Its doubtful I’d make $45 an hour, but probable that I’d make more than $30.
Of course I have absolutely no problem with that amount of money, considering I have bills to pay very soon, and have no money currently. But the biggest things possibly stopping me are quite large. Perhaps the biggest being that I don’t want to get stuck in construction for the rest of my life. It’s great money, yeah, but that’s not what I want to do, and not what I’m meant to do. Which brings me to another drawback; I’d have to move to New York or north Jersey in order to get on site. At least, that’s what is most probable.
Sure, that puts me a lot closer to the city, and all the available auditions. But what if I’m working like 10 hours a day, and can’t get into the scene like I want to? Sure it’ll be great to have all that money to pay things off, but then what? I’d be alone in a new city, with nobody around me. Probably living in my uncles second house since he doesn’t use it anymore, until I could get money to get my own place, which wouldn’t be long if I’m making huge scratch like I think I will be.
I don’t know.. It’s a huge commitment. A huge decision, that’ll have a huge impact on my life. And as much as I know I have no real ties holding me to Philly, I can’t help but wonder what I’ll do without my friends. I mean, I live 35 minutes away from most of them, but only see them when I have the money to visit them. What’s gonna happen when I’m about 2 hours away? I know I need a job, and this is almost a guaranteed spot. And considering the pay, and the mountain of debt I have, it might not be such a bad thing. But is it the right thing?
Of course I do realize that I’m gettin a bit ahead of myself. But does that make the choice any easier? I suppose the first step, though, is to call my uncle and see what’s what.

If anybody wants to advise or throw insight on this at me, I’d be really appreciative.

So I don’t have work again til Saturday night..

Regardless, there’s a lot that has to happen this week. I’ve got to hunt for a job, since the season ends a lot sooner than I would like. I’ve got to write my application letter for school. And I’ve got to find monologues to memorize. And consequently memorize them. Fax things to important people. Make connections where I still have bridges. And I need to get back into working out.

Work and working on stilts has been a fantastic workout. Increasing my stamina, as well as my upper and lower body definition. But I really new to get back into lifting, and working on my core. I’ve got a routine in mind for the core, but I can only do so much with my weights since I only have 20lb free weights. I’m heavily considering, again, to get a heavy bag. It’ll help with multiple muscle areas, plus it’d quite help with any stress or emotions that I want to let out.

But I’ve gotten away from the point of this. Basically, I want you guys to help me with keeping my word on getting this all done. I’ve got a week, and big things to do. And I’d greatly appreciate it if my followers helped stir the fire under my semi-lazy ass, because this is one of my last real shots before I get in over my head.

Achieved

Even more greatness. Climbed to the top of the fountain outside North Hall tonight. Photo evidence to follow soon. I just need photo proof of me being on Mario’s high back now. And for them to take that box away from the A. J. Drexel statue, so I can sit on his lap. If you guys can think of any other statues/sculpturesque things on this campus for me to climb, please suggest or mention them. I feel like I’m missing something somewhere, but I’m not sure. 

And yes, I did climb the horse in motion statue by the DAC. There’s already a picture up here of my on the middle horse. 

Oh yeah. One thing I’ve also achieved is my ribcage to be completely swollen. I hate coughing like this. My ribs hurt so bad right now, and there’s nothing I can do about them, like, at all. Oh well I guess..

One last thing. A buddy of mine said something tonight that really struck me. Not because of the context he was saying it in, but because it pretty much encompasses me in a general way, which is easy for me to use in the future as a description of me. Here’s what he said:

"The few struggle so the many don’t have to" 

Knowing the context he meant this in, I know my struggles don’t match to his. But really, this statement is still really relevant for me. I’ve mentioned many times before that my life has been a constant uphill struggle. But somehow I always manage to take on the stresses and whatnot of other people and carry on. I think I’m one of those few to struggle, so that (most of) you can carry on. Even though there’s nothing really that great about me. So If you need to get something off of your chest, mind, stomach, or any other part of your person? Feel free to talk to me. If I can’t help, perhaps I know someone who can. And if I can help, I’m more than willing to. 

once. just once. could my life be normal? why is that too much to ask for in life? do i not deserve it? why does everything “good” have to end for me badly, and then a month or two later get even worse? this is historically accurate for my life. what did i do to deserve these things? am i really that awful? why do i trust people when i know i’m gonna get hurt?

Cooking

again. I think mom likes me around, if not for my company, for my ability and willingness to cook. We’ve only had meals prepared here Monday, Wednesday, and today, and all of them have been cooked by me. I’m not complaining, I like cooking. And I know it helps mom out, ‘cause she’s the only one that does stuff around the house, and she has to do all of it when she gets home after working for 9 hours a day. I’m just glad I can help.